I seriously need that one tight slap to wake me up. Right now, I’m still in that slack mood and it annoys the crap out of me. And yet, as always, I do absolutely nothing about it.

I plan, and plan, and plan some more.Monthly,weekly and daily schedules that are overwhelming.And of course, a little too idealistic.It's unattainable given the no. of available hours there are in a day.But still, I continue to live in denial and choose to believe in my unquestioned(hah!) capabilities.That somehow, someway, I will complete all tasks and hence be able to celebrate my accomplishments with an outing or smthg.

Obviously, the tasks remain unfinished but the celebrations are carried out anyways.

Coming to SR wasn't exactly my plan.It never was.But being here doesn't mean that my aspirations will falter, crumble and be no longer in existence.Because success is not dependent on the route you take, what counts is the fact that you reach your desired destination.And maybe its due to the conversation with zaki about our ambitions and other people's failures that has driven me into this sudden state of anxiety, but I'm glad I'm actually realizing it now, 2 weeks before mids.

Academically, I'm coping fine.I just need to get my ass to work.(say hello, Mr.Redbull!)Except for my language, both of them, which seem to deteriorate at an alarming pace. I must stop being a minah la sia because it doesn't seem to help the slightest bit with my malay. Imagine, I had problems conversing in proper malay during my oral, to the point where I had to use english to argue with cikgu about my seemingly valid points. Understandably, I was never erm.. verbally inclined in malay (well neither am i that great in my written work as well), but the condition of my spoken malay now is beyond pathetic.

On a totally random note, syafiq sends me songs online that initially i find abit odd but after awhile, i tend to grow on them and they're actually pretty nice.Except for that telepopmusik- smile one because that one, I felt as if I was in the twilight zone or something.And it's freaky because i used to have a phobia of twilight zones when i was young.Sometimes I even felt as if I was being deported into some other dimension, where everybody else were zombies or vampires and i was the only human.hahaha I doubt that had any link with the twilight zone but it's just something i felt like sharing.

And maybe, just maybe, I'm a little weird too.
haha, say people say yourself!