You have no idea how much I hated math.like fuck, bodoh!hahait was manageable, yes, but i couldn't solve a single shit.im gg to fail miserably, omgoodness. &then halfway i wanted to just give up and decided to turn to my stress reliever buddy, Block Dude, when I realised that he was gone! Vanished from the storage of my gc cause we had to bloody clear the effing memory.the torture of that half an hour's wait till 1500hrs with nothing to do!rahhhh.

& ive let my poor old arthritis-ridden tutor down:(

but i will persevere on and not give up and laterrrrrrrr i will become a budak yang bijak bestari!watch me.

CHICAS DE FUTBAL @ DIVA LA FUTBAL

omgoodness, great great fun.CHICAS! made it to the QF for the Champions Cup.I am super proud of my CHICAS! okay.& Fara, wah fara baik ah, cheyyy(dont kembang)&We played in a very carefree manner, laughing at all the stupid blunders we made.

photosssssssssssssss(:
CHICAS! is love(&see, i told you all to take picture b4 the matches!)
chicas's angels; anna me fara.the original trio who
are forever COINCIDENTALLY on the same team.
rachel&I, camwhoring when we actually promised to do econs.



anywayyys, i've realized that all my friends are weird people.the long time buddies, the new pals i've made and probably the next lot of people i'll get acquainted with.butttt, i've come to accept their eccentricity and umm uniqueness, and i love them all muchos.

4 hours of sleep ytd, thanks to someone's horrible singing over the phone, pretending to be Ryan Atwood & Nathan of OTH (neverrrrrrrr!), attempting to play bella luna and dragging the conversation till practically dawn.(Yes, this part's you)

3 hours of math was a killer, rachel&I were probably brain dead after that.

2 hours of trying to stuff econs into my brains after math.attempt obviously faltered, due to my distraught state of mind.& other distractions, like CJ and Anna.

1 hour of econs again(chey chey) before i retire to bed.


DIVA LA FUTBOL tmr.7.30am at Boon Lay, that's just crazy talk.I am so not a morning person.But, what wouldn't I do for my CHICAS eh?

omg i doomed for mids, i swear. i planned to mug today but of course, with the company of slenge bacins like marr&amira&shrtl, work can never be done.Because us 4 decided to get our hair done at the nearby saloon.Marr this is all cause of you ok!But it was fun cause i haven't seen them in a long time.

anddddd now im super stressed i dont know why.but i hate it when i get all stressed up because my brain just cant function properly and so i get frustrated when i cant solve/memorize/understand stuff and thennn i get even more stressed.

rahhhhhh.

I flicked through the channles and Nigella's Feasts was on travel&living.For some reason, I didn't change the channel and continued on watching.I especially love her gorgeous kitchen.It's nothing high-tech, not the futuristic interior we commonly see in kitchens today.The country feel of the pure white setting that just somehow exudes sophistication.

So anyways, ytd was fun with the mild soccer "training" in the morning(though i barely did anything much since my ankle's inured and also cause i am such a lazy ass), following sheereen back to get her cert at bowen and hence having to make the long trip back to the bus stop to avoid a certain area cause she's afraid she'll get possessed and that i'll just run away and leave her lying there and topped it off with a trip to JBS with efy(ive nvr actually called her that, but yeah) for the evening match.

And todayyyy's my ANNA's brithday.(see i even coloured it purple cause i know you like purple[: )

SO happy birthday you smelly pantat! CHICAS FOR LIFE.

and the studying was pretty productive too.econs is fun when you actually understand it.math on the other hand, is still as shitty as ever.period.

When this sudden wave of negative emotions engulfs you, it smashes you against the sharp rocks over and over again, till you practically bleed to death, and then it pulls you back to deep shark - infested waters to drown you, just to make a 100% sure you're dead.

It's like a roller coaster ride and i'm getting pretty nauseous.i want to get off, but something tells me that queasy feeling's worth the ride.

well, nothing lasts forever anyway.

Everyday
With every worthless word we get more far away
The distance between us makes it so hard to stay
But nothing lasts forever, but be honest babe
It hurts but it may be the only way♥

i must thank Sabrina truckloads for sending me the entire maroon5 album because i'm absolutely in love with it. haha

cheer up world, and smile, cause you're worth it.hahahahaha

mom's back.and that's the end of our "12 days of joy"(haha) quote fats.but I havent even gotten to really missing her yet so it just shows how fast 12 days can fly by.

whoever said that toothpaste could be used to get rid of pimples can screw his/herself cause toothpaste burns your skin, bodoh!eurgh.and now i look absolutely fug, thanks.

which may just be a blessing in disguise actually.cause then, i will tend to stay in and be forced to mug for mids.

but stilllllllllllllllllll........

bad skin seriously stomps on your self-esteem.it's worse than being fat, in my opinion that is.

I did APGP today and i feel so pleased with myself, ignoring the fact that i only attempted 4 questions.But hey,it still is a feat to me.And I managed to study a bit more of other subjects too.And this calls for celebration, baby!Let's go out and party the night away........

If only I could walk properly, that is.

My ankle muscle's giving me problems.It's not swollen or anything, so I have no idea what's wrong it.And I think I wrapped the elastic bandage around it too tightly.But it hurrrrtssssss OH THE PAIN, I tell you.So maybe that was a little exaggerated but point is, it hurts.

I am rotting to death at home.I cannot do any physical activity due to the injured leg and so i cannot execute my lose weight plan with full efficiency.And since I need not wake up early for my jogs, i tend to sleep into the afternoon, which is bad.Cause then I wake up hungry, and there's no proper meal, so i binge.On chipsmore and oreo and coke!omg fat.

& I'm desperate for a good read.Yes, mids are in less than a fortnight away, but i swore never to fall into the category of jc freaks who read nothing else except their lecture notes, model essays and the occasional newspaper articles.

Paolo Coelho's books are addictive, i love that guy.Even though they're sorted under the meta-physics section and some of his books tend to speak of the Divine Energy and refer to God as a woman.But I trust my faith's strong enough(cheyyy).To date, I have read 4 books, including his latest Like a flowing river which is basically a compilation of many short stories, about latin american myths, legends, his encounters that each hold a strong value or sentiment.And i enjoy them, these short stories.

&maybe on some nights, I miss you.

If i could get another chance
another walk, another dance
with you...

I'll play a song that would never ever end.♥

I seriously need that one tight slap to wake me up. Right now, I’m still in that slack mood and it annoys the crap out of me. And yet, as always, I do absolutely nothing about it.

I plan, and plan, and plan some more.Monthly,weekly and daily schedules that are overwhelming.And of course, a little too idealistic.It's unattainable given the no. of available hours there are in a day.But still, I continue to live in denial and choose to believe in my unquestioned(hah!) capabilities.That somehow, someway, I will complete all tasks and hence be able to celebrate my accomplishments with an outing or smthg.

Obviously, the tasks remain unfinished but the celebrations are carried out anyways.

Coming to SR wasn't exactly my plan.It never was.But being here doesn't mean that my aspirations will falter, crumble and be no longer in existence.Because success is not dependent on the route you take, what counts is the fact that you reach your desired destination.And maybe its due to the conversation with zaki about our ambitions and other people's failures that has driven me into this sudden state of anxiety, but I'm glad I'm actually realizing it now, 2 weeks before mids.

Academically, I'm coping fine.I just need to get my ass to work.(say hello, Mr.Redbull!)Except for my language, both of them, which seem to deteriorate at an alarming pace. I must stop being a minah la sia because it doesn't seem to help the slightest bit with my malay. Imagine, I had problems conversing in proper malay during my oral, to the point where I had to use english to argue with cikgu about my seemingly valid points. Understandably, I was never erm.. verbally inclined in malay (well neither am i that great in my written work as well), but the condition of my spoken malay now is beyond pathetic.

On a totally random note, syafiq sends me songs online that initially i find abit odd but after awhile, i tend to grow on them and they're actually pretty nice.Except for that telepopmusik- smile one because that one, I felt as if I was in the twilight zone or something.And it's freaky because i used to have a phobia of twilight zones when i was young.Sometimes I even felt as if I was being deported into some other dimension, where everybody else were zombies or vampires and i was the only human.hahaha I doubt that had any link with the twilight zone but it's just something i felt like sharing.

And maybe, just maybe, I'm a little weird too.
haha, say people say yourself!

Camp was cut short.Besides, it was just not going well for me.

The week was basically wasted, nothing accomplished at all.No tutorials done and still that lost in math.But nvm, I shall not procrastinate any further and begin my studying.....after i'm done with this post just because i'm such a good girl.

Friday we hit the street soccer court near bowen and the night was spent in town walking around aimlessly.Today I managed to catch Ocean's 13 with EDDDY(: and we walked some more and my feet are sore now thanks to my wedges.I neeeeeeed cash badly.The GSS is unbelievable and to make things worse, mum's not in town to shop with me.

my pizza order's still not here and i called like 3hrs ago.im super hungry and you wont like me when im angry, cause i bite bitch!rahhhhhhhhhh!

and life has been kinda sweet these past few days(:

thurs morning was spent at some street soccer court.MB alert; my dear, not only are you already such a troll(with humongous boobies!), you're a chauvinistic one at that.



friday night at TPJC's manisfestasi, and just suddenly you'll feel all semangat melayu.


for all the times on the field,cause we were the bomb tghr.
&saturday, we decided on CHICAS! and Duddette United(lisa's idea) as our team names for Diva La Futbol.Truth be told, I see not much of a chance to win anything.So basically, we're in it for the fun and we're going to gel and go mad.

I have camp next week and i don't feel the least bit excited.Mom's gg away for 2 weeks and Im gg to miss her like fuck.