My nerves are all over the place.Literally .I have never been this vulnerable, ever.No matter how fucked up things got, I still manage to keep collected and think optimistically.But recently,I'm just beginning to crawl into the realm of paranoia- an emotion I swore never to succumb to.I have kept vigilant by my phone, jumping at every phone call, hoping for it to be an unfamiliar number, bearing good news.

I have absolutely no idea what to expect tomorrow or friday.I'm just hoping for the best really.Personally I thought everything went smoothly today, except for that shitty TSD qualifying test which was just mental torture.In no way has any of my 4 years worth of drama experience applicable to this.I could have just died.

And I do not want to remain in SR.It's not about the pride, in fact it's quite pratical since its so near and all.It's just that if I go there and I dont get into Uni I'll just waste my whole life cause I can never achieve my dreams.Screw all that motivational talk about failing and picking youself up again.It's bullocks and you damn well know it.

Because life's a bitch and it always will be whether we like it or not.She's mean and unfair and we should all go kill her now.RAHHHH.

So wish me luck, for success in my appeal.Though I doubt any of you would even care, for my life has nothing to do with yours.For all I know, you'd be silently cursing me with your cruel wishes for my appeal to be denied.But then now you're just mean and unfair and we should all go kill you now.RAHHHH.