School starts tomorrow.Guess where I'm at? SRJC SRJC !!!*gets high over stupid school cheer*

OMFG.Can you freaking believe I'm there? Worst of all, that I freaking CHOSE to remain there, despite my TP appeal?haha.I used to never want to go there because it's so bloody near which is soo ironic since the distance factor is now the main reason to why I want to stay.

And I actually think it's quite fun.

SRJC ALL FOR YOU, YOUR CALL IS OURS TOO

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Don't you ever ask why I chose what I chose.Before I begin regretting what I did and then I'll just start crying non-stop.

I've been dying to ride that ferris wheel at the themepark at hg mall there but Cai said that it was $8 per ride or smthg like that.Gawd, what a scam.

So anyways, we had some CEC camp in school today and it was well..... alright lahs.It was supposed to bond us all together but at the end of the day, I dont think thaaat much bonding was really accomplished.Maybe cause it was just a few hours and many of us are still used to our OG mates.

But I really do miss Bowen.Not the fucked up school system but the all-too-familiar company which I seem to have grown on for the past 4 years.

I heard thecollege's drama's collapsing this year or smthg like that, which meannns no syf participation which means their drama's shit.

Which also means, haha, that I'll most likely continue soccer.Which also also means that I'd have to start excercising and start training and all cause my skills and stamina are soooo bloody rusty cause the last game I played was like what, in July last year?

And school hasnt even started and I'm already behind in econs cause I missed the 9am lecture thanks to my lovely cousins who wanted to all overnight at the chalet and so I managed to only catch a few zzz cause we were busy playing Volleyball& slacking at the beach...OHOH and trying to speak in KakNab's "language" which is neither malay nor is it english anddd yeah.

Tmr's my day in.The♥ 's coming over to watch some DVD's and I hope that it'll rain cause I just love sipping hot choc on a cold rainy day.Dont you?

I TOOK IT IN MY STRIDE and had fun.

My nerves are all over the place.Literally .I have never been this vulnerable, ever.No matter how fucked up things got, I still manage to keep collected and think optimistically.But recently,I'm just beginning to crawl into the realm of paranoia- an emotion I swore never to succumb to.I have kept vigilant by my phone, jumping at every phone call, hoping for it to be an unfamiliar number, bearing good news.

I have absolutely no idea what to expect tomorrow or friday.I'm just hoping for the best really.Personally I thought everything went smoothly today, except for that shitty TSD qualifying test which was just mental torture.In no way has any of my 4 years worth of drama experience applicable to this.I could have just died.

And I do not want to remain in SR.It's not about the pride, in fact it's quite pratical since its so near and all.It's just that if I go there and I dont get into Uni I'll just waste my whole life cause I can never achieve my dreams.Screw all that motivational talk about failing and picking youself up again.It's bullocks and you damn well know it.

Because life's a bitch and it always will be whether we like it or not.She's mean and unfair and we should all go kill her now.RAHHHH.

So wish me luck, for success in my appeal.Though I doubt any of you would even care, for my life has nothing to do with yours.For all I know, you'd be silently cursing me with your cruel wishes for my appeal to be denied.But then now you're just mean and unfair and we should all go kill you now.RAHHHH.